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Time sure does fly. The Last Day of Kindergarten is 15 this year! I’m grateful this book has been around so long and thought it would be fun to take a look back at the journey. My daughter provided the inspiration for Last Day way back in 2003. Helena loved kindergarten and didn’t want to let it go. After the graduation ceremony, most kids seemed happy, but she was crying. She realized that growing up meant leaving things behind. I comforted my dramatic daughter as best I could, but the experience got me thinking. There were lots of books to help children prepare for the first day of kindergarten. But what about the last day? For many kids, this day was confusing. It brought excitement and pride, but also a sense of loss. A day or two later, I brought Helena and two neighborhood friends to Chuck E. Cheese in Burnsville (MN). While the girls ran around, playing all the games and collecting long streams of tickets, I sat in a booth with my notebook and jotted down my initial ideas. (Here is visible proof of my writing motto: "Make a mess and clean it up.") The original story took place in the narrator’s home on the day before the last day of kindergarten. The narrator’s parents and older brother helped her deal with her mixed feelings about graduation. An editor from Marshall Cavendish expressed interest in the manuscript, but she wanted the entire story to take place in school. I didn't resist; I recognized that this approach would make the book more universal. The heart of the book remained the same. I did some tweaking, and Marshall Cavendish offered me a contract. Sachiko Yoshikawa was chosen as the illustrator. I felt lucky. There was a sweet, playful quality in her work that was a good match with the text. I later learned that she based the illustrations on her own daughter's kindergarten experience in San Francisco. Publishing is often a stop-and-start business, and this entire book-making process took place over a number of years. By the time The Last Day of Kindergarten was released in the spring of 2011, my daughter was in eighth grade--and not the least bit sad when those last days of school rolled around. The first year Last Day was out, I presented the book to eight local kindergarten classes in one day. EIGHT. And I didn't just read the book. I helped the students in each classroom come up with their own graduation stories. What an absolute blur that day was! I also spoke to two kindergarten classes at my hometown library in Mt. Lake and had the great privilege of sharing Last Day with my very own kindergarten teacher, Mrs. Peters. I created activities to go with the book and put them on my website. Some are simple: making a graduation announcement and diploma, playing "Pomp and Circumstance." Others are more involved. Be a Memory Keeper offers a number of prompts to get kids reflecting on their year, as well as different ways they can express their thoughts. Write Your Own Graduation Story provides kids with the basic structure of Last Day and gives them space to put in the special details from their own lives. Make Your Own Graduation Cap shows kids how to make a "funny flat hat." Shortly after the book came out, Marshall Cavendish was sold to Two Lions, the children’s publishing branch of Amazon. This was concerning. It meant that the book would have little or no presence in brick-and-mortar stores. (What bookstore would promote books published by its biggest competitor?) I’ve often felt disappointed that Last Day never had a place among bookstore graduation displays in the spring. But I know I've been lucky in other ways. In 2012, one cold night at the end of January, I received an email that warmed me up considerably: Last Day was a Minnesota Book Award finalist! Here I am at the Loft in Minneapolis at a related event. When I present the book to kids, I have them do motions to go along with the text. It was great fun to make an audience of adults do the motions with me. We're all just big kids, after all. 2012 MN Book Awards: in good company with Laura Purdie Salas, Joyce Sidman, and Catherine Thimmesh. (Laura took home the prize for Bookspeak! Poems about Books.) Also in 2012, Last Day came out as a Scholastic paperback and was a bestseller for the month of May. Those flyers were always floating around my house when my kids were growing up—and when I was growing up as well. My bookshelves still hold Scholastic titles from decades ago. Knowing my book is part of this tradition is really, really cool. One especially meaningful Last Day event was the Kindergarten Association Conference in 2012. Along with four other writers, I sold books at a table sponsored by the Children’s Literature Network. That’s where I met Karen Henry Clark, author of Sweet Moon Baby and, more recently, Library Girl (a picture book about the renowned librarian Nancy Pearl). We struck up a friendship that day that has meant the world to me. In 2017, Last Day came out in Mandarin . I still marvel at the thought that children on the other side of the world are reading the story that got its start in my own home. Last year I worked with an SAT student who had lived in Hohhot, China, when she was in fourth grade. She actually knew Mandarin and had self-published a book of interviews she conducted with the people she met in China that year. Author to author, we exchanged signed copies of our books! As the years have gone by, I’ve shared Last Day with many classrooms. I’ve mailed books to friends who want them for their grandkids. My mom keeps copies on hand to give to the graduating kindergartners in her church. During the Covid pandemic, a first-year kindergarten teacher in Texas contacted me through my Facebook author page. She had raised the funds to give every child in her classroom their own copy of Last Day. She gave me the names of her students and asked me to send signed bookplates. When that surreal school year came to an end, she drove to every student’s home and personally delivered the books. I'm sure those kids will never forget her devotion to them. This same teacher contacted me recently and asked for signed bookplates for her kindergarten class of 2026. I'm happy to think that my book will be part of their celebration. There's a good chance that Last Day won’t be in print too much longer. I think that’s why I feel the need to write this piece: like the narrator in my story, I’m preparing to say goodbye. I will share one last memory, one that makes me smile every time I think of it. I’ve lost track of the specifics, but I know this event took place in a school in western Minnesota in the spring of 2013 or 2014. Both of those years I was “on tour” as a visiting author with the Southwest-West Central Service Cooperative. For a few very intense days, I did little else but give presentations, prepare to give presentations, and drive long miles on rural highways. At one session, I was sharing Last Day with a group of students that included kindergarteners as well as first graders. I came to these lines: I’m reciting our ABC farewell poem without making any mistakes. I’m singing “Zip-A-Dee-Doo-Dah” and clapping in all the right places. —and every last one of those kids burst into song! They sang “Zip-A-Dee-Doo-Dah” and clapped in all the right places. A teacher explained that this was one of the songs in their winter concert, which had been delayed a whole month because of untimely snowstorms. They had practiced and practiced and practiced. These kids owned “Zip-A-Dee-Doo-Dah.” You should see the smile on my face right now.
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FIRST PUBLISHED 4-21-25 UPDATES 6-20 and 12-29 Every fall, when I clean up the potted plants on my small deck, I pick all the little green tomatoes, put them in a bowl, and watch as they slowly ripen. I’ve eaten my homegrown cherry tomatoes as late as Christmas Day. This year I did something different. Instead of picking the tomatoes, I cut off the stems and placed them in water to make a tomato bouquet. One of the stems still had a few blossoms on it. I was touched by the plant’s optimism. It was November, after all. A few weeks later, I was about to discard the stems when I noticed that one stem was starting to develop roots. Sure enough, it was the one with the blossoms. I decided to give it a chance. I planted it in a small pot and waited to see what would happen. The lower branches and blossoms quickly dried up, but new leaves started growing from the top. Then came danger—spider mites! I had to give up a couple of infested houseplants, but I sprayed the little tomato plant with insecticidal soap and crossed my fingers. For a while I thought it was a lost cause. The leaves withered away. The plant was little more than a bare stalk. I was about to toss it when I thought I saw something. Wasn’t there a little bit of bright green at the very top? The spot of color was so small it was hard to tell. Once again, I waited to see what would happen. What happened was the little tomato plant grew. And grew... And grew... And grew! This gangly plant has been a source of delight to me. I tell its story to anyone who comes to visit. I give regular updates to my mom when we talk on the phone. When I have to leave for more than a few hours, I say loving things to it that are too embarrassing to reveal here. Over Easter weekend, my improbable tomato plant picked up where it left off last fall. It bloomed. I wish we lived in a nation that cared for its people in the same way I've cared for my tomato plant. Noticing and encouraging signs of growth, no matter how small. Protecting them from harm. Providing them with water, good soil, and plenty of light. Delighting in what they turn out to be, even if they are not what we expect. Valuing them as the gifts that they are. UPDATE Two Months Later June 20, 2025 When I last wrote, my tomato plant was taller than my floor lamp. But it didn't stop there. No sir. This plant had some real ambition. (Play the video!) At its peak, my tomato plant nearly touched the ceiling. It had been staked (I had to tape two long stakes together) and was leaning against my lamp. It seemed sturdy enough. But on June 1, the adventure ended. My ambitious plant had overreached. That morning I discovered it lying broken on the floor. I felt a little broken, too. I trimmed it way back and put the plant on my deck. At least that was some consolation. The thrill was gone, but now the plant could be outside. It didn't look like much: just a stem with a few crinkly leaves that looked past their prime. Three weeks later, the plant hasn't grown any taller. But it's growing new branches from at least nine places. There's a lesson in that, too, right? UPDATE December 29, 2025 It’s now been over a year since I noticed roots poking out of that flowering stem, and my never-say-die tomato is still going strong. Over the summer, the plant filled out and gave me plenty of flavorful tomatoes. It even gave me another plant: when a branch broke during a thunderstorm, I stuck it into a pot filled with dirt. The branch continued producing tomatoes without missing a beat. In the fall, I brought both plants inside and continued to enjoy fresh tomatoes—a couple of which were doubles. (“Okay, now you’re just showing off,” I said.) On cloudy days, I place the mother plant near its old friend, the grow light. On sunny days, both plants bask in the light of my south-facing window. Even in the dead of winter, the blossoms keep coming. Every so often, I use the tip of a pencil to move pollen from one flower to another. When I see a tiny new tomato setting on, I feel a sense of accomplishment. One tomato was perfectly ripe at Christmas. I gave it to my mom. For so many of us, 2025 has been a year of disbelief, fear, anger, and despair. But through these long months, my tenacious tomato has given me a bit of solace and good cheer. I hope it will do the same for you.
If you’re reading this, you may already know that Linda’s daughter, Carissa, provided the inspiration for The Everybody Club. The inclusive spirit of the club she started in her family’s basement years ago shines through in this picture book written in her memory. What you may not know is that shortly before Carissa died in a car accident at sixteen, she had gone on a school trip to Washington, D.C., and came home determined to become a government leader herself. She wanted to help build a better world. In early 2025, Linda and I decided to send a copy of The Everybody Club to all 535 members of Congress. It was our way of sending Carissa to Washington. This was a HUGE undertaking—and with the help and generosity of our friends, family, and even some strangers, we did it! We organized a GoFundMe project to raise the thousands of dollars needed to buy and ship all those books. Eden Prairie Local News published an article about the project. By mid-March, the books were on their way to our nation's capital. Here are some photos documenting our efforts. We received a number of thank you notes, some handwritten and others emailed. Here we are with one of our biggest supporters, Nancy's mom! :) One of the most gracious notes came from California Congresswoman Maxine Waters.
We will never know where those 535 books end up. But in these tumultuous times, we like to imagine that somewhere out there, a child is reading The Everybody Club and is excited about creating a world in which all are welcome. Our journey with The Everybody Club continues—now with a very fortunate twist! The book has been relaunched by Amicus Ink. Linda and I are thrilled. How did this come about? Nearly two years ago, in November 2022, I applied for a short-term copywriting gig with Amicus (located in Mankato and distributed by the Creative Company). I included a variety of EC content in my portfolio. The editor looked the book up on Amazon and had some nice things to say. I was touched that she would take the time to look at EC, and I sent her a PDF so she could see the entire book. The very next day I received this note:
Mind. Blown. The day after that, Linda and I met the editor on Zoom. And within a couple of weeks, we had a contract.
My white squirrel died. Of course it wasn’t my white squirrel. It belonged to the neighborhood. And oddly enough, it wasn’t even the first white squirrel—there was another one before it. I live in an 1892 brownstone apartment building in one of the older neighborhoods in St. Paul. When I moved here four years ago, one of the things that charmed me the most was the white squirrel who lived in the ash trees in front of my building. Every time I spotted that bobbing bit of white, I felt that good things were on the way. There’s a deck at the back of my building, and even though the light isn’t ideal, I’ve had moderate success growing container plants in my little bit of outdoor space. Maybe because they have to try harder, the cherry tomatoes are especially flavorful. The white squirrel must have thought so, too, because I once caught it sitting on the rail, helping itself to my tomatoes as if they were its birthright. One day, heading home from a walk, I saw two white blurs ahead of me. The white squirrel sometimes looked like a plastic bag from a distance, so I assumed there were either two plastic bags blowing around or else the white blurs were my squirrel and one bag. I got closer and realized there were actually two white squirrels. Double the luck! The second squirrel started hanging around more often, and if I got close enough I could tell them apart. The original squirrel seemed older, a bit more bedraggled. And soon I didn’t need to be close to tell them apart. The first squirrel showed up one day with half its tail missing. Whenever I saw it, I tried to maintain eye contact. You’re a scrappy one, I thought at it. Good for you. In early spring this year, I got a glimpse of the half-tailed squirrel and was relieved to see that it had made it through the winter. But that one glimpse was all I got. The squirrel never showed up again. I hope it at least got the chance to enjoy a little spring sunshine on its fur. The second squirrel now became the resident squirrel. And occasionally another white squirrel I recognized from my walks dropped by. This third white squirrel had a bristly tail that looked almost like a toilet brush. Its eyes were darker and it wasn’t as shy. the third white squirrel I began seeing the resident squirrel more often—in the tree branches in front of my window, along the fenceline across the street, in the shady alcove next to the steps. Sometimes it was in the parking lot. Its flat-footed hop seemed different from that of other squirrels, as if its feet were flippers better suited to water than land. My mom loved the white squirrels as much as I did. I regularly reported my sightings to her and sent her pictures. When she visited, she stood by my window and watched for white. This past August, I went for a short walk while she waited for me on the bench in front of my building. When I came back, the white squirrel was out and about, giving my mom her own close-up encounter. Probably because I always stopped to watch it, the squirrel usually paused for a bit to look back at me. I imagined that it recognized me, that it knew I was a friend. In mid-November, on a Thursday afternoon, I returned from a walk and there was the squirrel, just a few feet away. We held each other’s gazes longer than we ever had. The following Sunday morning I saw something white and still beneath the ash tree. I knew it wasn’t a plastic bag. My heart sank and I went to the tree with trepidation, not wanting to see what I knew was there. The squirrel didn’t have any visible signs of injury. Its pink eyes were open. It didn’t look particularly peaceful, nor did it look like it had struggled. It just looked gone. I couldn’t bear the thought of the squirrel being carried away by animals, or remaining there and slowly deteriorating, an object of curiosity and revulsion for passersby. I couldn’t bear the thought of putting it in the dumpster in the alley. I wanted to bury it, but where? I thought about burying it next to the building, but I didn’t have a spade, just a flimsy trowel; and truth be told, I didn’t want my neighbors to wonder about me. And I had to work in the afternoon, so I didn’t have a lot of time to figure this out. My kindhearted friend Sandra gave me my answer. She lives ten minutes away from me and has a house with a yard. She also has a soft spot for animals and has buried a few wild creatures herself. She said I could bury the squirrel beneath her tree. I found a box the right size and lined it with paper towels. With plastic bags on my hands, I placed the squirrel into the box. Its body was already stiff. Sandra had the spade ready and a spot picked out when I arrived. We dug the hole, then opened the box to say goodbye and to give the squirrel a parting gift of cornflakes and pistachios. We placed the box into the ground, covered it with dirt, and marked the spot with pieces of blue pottery. I went on with my day. Six weeks have now passed, and every time I leave my building, I am still keenly aware of the white squirrel’s absence. Those glimmers of delight that punctuated my comings and goings are gone. I keep hoping that the third white squirrel will move into my neighborhood, but so far I’ve only seen it once, blocks away. I’ve been trying to figure out why these white squirrels have meant so much to me. I haven't come up with an answer. All I know is that they did. For Christmas this year, I bought my mom and me tiny figurines of a white squirrel. I placed mine by a pair of Christmas tree candles that my mom made years ago. The figurines are a bit too cute to convey the spirit of the squirrels, but at least they will provide us with a reminder. We will remember that upwelling of gladness that we experienced so often during these past few years. And we will feel lucky. As I write this, we’re on the brink of a widespread winter storm warning. Here in St. Paul, the temperature today has ranged from -5 to -13, and the wind is expected to pick up, creating blizzard conditions and dangerously low windchills. Across the country, weather forecasters have been calling this the coldest Christmas in roughly 40 years.
I’d last used the cutter with laminated vocabulary words and other visuals when I was working as a preschool tutor for Reading Corps several years ago. I remember feeling a delightful sense of teacherly industriousness as I prepared my lessons. I adored the inexpensive laminator I’d picked up at Aldi’s; I loved watching as my flimsy printouts turned stiff and shiny. And the paper cutter never failed me. Slice. Slice. Slice. My dad passed away shortly after my service with Reading Corps ended. This time, when I brought out the paper cutter, my thoughts went back to my own childhood: my dad in the basement, the paper cutter on top of our small pool table, and that distinctive metallic sound as the blade came down and through, down and through. What did he need to cut? He directed the choir and served on the music committee at church, so most likely it had something to do with music. I knew I wasn’t to touch the paper cutter myself. I might hurt myself. It was dangerous. When I watched him make cut after cut, I was awestruck. My dad could do dangerous things. He was precise, deliberate, as he was in all he did—the careful upkeep of the farm equipment, the expertly trimmed trees in the grove, the ledger books that didn’t miss a single transaction. My rectangles piled up. How I wished I could have shared the journey of The Everybody Club with my dad. He would have embraced the message wholeheartedly. He would have been proud of me—not just for making the book, but for helping my friend find a way to celebrate her daughter’s life. For a little while, the paper cutter brought me back to him, and him to me, and we stood there at my kitchen counter, cutting those rectangles together.
Win a hardcover copy of The LAST Day of Kindergarten! To enter, leave a comment on this blog. Tell me something your child, your students, or you yourself learned during this kindergarten school year. It can be a few words or few paragraphs, whatever you like. (Be sure to check back to see what others have shared!) On May 13 I will randomly pick an entry and email the winner to get mailing instructions. Congrats to all graduating kindergartners and their people! YOU DID IT! :) In 2019 and 2020, I taught a few semesters of creative writing at Hennepin Technical College. The best part of the job was being witness to my students' growth. For some students, that growth went beyond a new understanding of elements like plot or description. They learned that the very process of writing can be transformative. One student in particular discovered that writing can heal: "It helps you dig deeper within yourself," she told me. She continued to write after the class ended and has sent me some of her work from time to time. With her permission, I'm posting a couple of pieces here. They deal with sexual assault and its aftermath. Since April is both Sexual Assault Awareness Month and National Poetry Month, I thought this would be a good time to share her work. Darling, You’re Not Alone The definition of the word is unlawful sexual activity and usually sexual intercourse carried out forcibly or under threat of injury against a person's will or with a person who is beneath a certain age or incapable of valid consent because of mental illness, mental deficiency, intoxication, unconsciousness, or deception. There is no word that defines what happens to the survivors when this word is finished. How an agonizing pain tore my limbs apart piece by piece. How I surveyed each piece of my body from head to toe. How I wondered what made my attacker choose me, when did my words no longer matter. How a world that was so full of bright colors became the same shade of gray. My mind and spirit were shattered as if they were made out of glass. My solid foundation was nothing to this demon that was forced upon me. My body gave up, stopped fighting the war within my mind. My body and I slipped away into a comatose state where I merely existed in the world. I was stuck in a crippling depression, stuck in time. I was standing still on the sidewalk on a busy day in the city, thinking I would rather die. I would lie on my bed covered with several blankets to hide my body away. In my mind I was screaming, but my voice was a whisper lying that I was fine. Bathing became a tortuous event that took all life and energy out of me. I couldn’t erase the unclean feeling. How does one clean something that is not dirty on the outside? I couldn’t stand to be touched, not even by my own hand. How could I be the mother I wanted to be if no one could touch me? My children’s bathtub toys all around the edge of the tub. Somehow when I went to work I would shove it all away--my feelings of shame, disgust, fear, pain, numbness, anger, confusion, and loss. Others described my strength and courage as amazing, but some days I had no strength or courage at all. I crumpled against the floor where I would lie and cry. I’d let my fear consume me until I couldn't bear it and I would call out for help. The voices on the other end of the line would always greet me with compassion, empathy, and became my light in my darkest moments. It felt like those voices were right next to me, protecting me in my weakened state. Those voices walked me through the hardest parts of processing what had happened to me. Healing from this word is not a straight line like a lot of people picture it. It’s rather a rollercoaster at night. Sometimes you see light and know what is to come. Other times it’s like you went backwards and you're in the dark again. In those dark moments, I could hear their voice replaying in my head. They encouraged me to keep going but assured me that it was okay to take a rest, too. Giving up, though, wasn’t an option, not if I wanted to get better. Because of them, I found that my voice, too, had strength and power to help myself and others like me. Do not lose hope, for those darker moments do get easier and they come less and less often. Things you felt you lost will come back. But you need to choose to heal. I hope that you hear me when I say that you are not alone in the battle. If you need someone to be your light and voice on the other line, I pray that you reach out. Darling, you're not alone in the battle. Your strength will shine even brighter than before.
I recently had the privilege of visiting with U.S. elementary students living in Europe. I offered them a couple of writing prompts (from my Weird Things collection, of course) and wow, did their imaginations take off! The students whose work is posted here went "above and beyond," according to their teachers. Enjoy! The first group of students wrote in response to this snow globe. |
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